a blur

That is what this week and now the whole summer are becoming- a blur.  We only have one week left.  I can't believe it.  I don't want to believe it. Since this week was junior camp, we finished up today.  It was such a random week.  I didn't have Katie (my co-counselor for 12 campers in a big cabin) with me until Monday night because of her sister's wedding and trees on highway 12.  This didn't end up being nearly as bad as it sounds, since many of the girls came with friends and therefore clumped together naturally, but I tackled her when I saw her.  It wasn't easy.  We had our cabin aunt (program staffer who fills in for counselors in their times off) with us thankfully.  Some of the girls definitely had some attitudes, but they were all in all pretty good.  Sunday night was marked by a wonderful thunderstorm that had us all awake for the day around 6:30 am.  None of the girls freaked out completely, it was just an exhausting night for me.  We all slept so well the next night that (some of you will crack up here) I slept through the alarm I set to wake girls up to go polar bear swimming.  I woke up right before breakfast when Katie woke everyone else up.  Counselor fail.  Whoops.  Also on Monday, we were walking back to the cabin after lunch and we found three recently hatched baby birds on the ground.  Like pink, eyes closed, just hatched.  One was already dead.  My counselor friend Twyla and I then spent our hour off making them a warm box and trying to get them to eat.  We lost another one that night, but as of a few hours ago, one of the birds is still alive.  I named him Maverick, because he's a fighter.  And he's a bird- Top Gun, flying, idk.  He sits in my hand and cries with his mouth pointed straight up for me to feed him.  I don't know why I'm so attached to this bird, because he probably will die soon anyways, but he's hung on so far at least.  All in all, such a random week.  One camper had participation issues which is always fun, the lightbulb in our cabin burnt out, just random things like this.  I've learned that the more tired I am, the less patient I am.  Patience is one of the if not the virtue of a camp counselor.  Prayer that we all remember why we are here in the last week of camp when it's so tempting to want to be with friends, that we are here for campers.  We've also been filling out a lot of debrief forms for the summer- which has made me think.  What have I learned you ask?  To seek God and His kingdom first, to put Him above everything else including my desires or wants for myself.  That I can do all through Him who gives me strength.  I've had to accept who I am, who I'm not, and to embrace these things.  I have to remember that the opinions of others are not what matters in God's plan for me.  It's been amazing.  Challenging, but amazing.